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Saturday, June 30, 2007

My favourite post (Richa)

Here is something I'd written a long time back... and something I keep going back to once in a while. It defines me when I fail to comprehend myself. And well... its the closest I can be to 'me'.

if
thr r noises within me
then thr is activity,
does that imply
that i cannot complain im alone?
or for that matter
feelin' lonely?

if only,
the noises were not noises
but voices
then it wud confirm this thght
n then agn
noise
or even voices
or crowds
dnt symbolise involvement
jst a stray onluker
n far more aloof
wit decibel levels.

so 2day if i claim
to b lonely
wud u pt. ur finger at me?
wud u scoff,
yell
or simply turn away?

if i stopped carin'
if u cared or not
wud i be free?
or closer chained
to my own opinion?
does my own opinion exist
independent of yours?

if i left my self naked
before ur thghts
wud my self esteem be bound to u,
ur opinion?
wud i then simply exist
as part of ur thinkin' world?
n my happiness
in ur reactions?
is happiness
bein' able to enjoy
the small joys of life?
or the process
of self discovery,
the path
or an accomplishment?

so, wud i truly b happy,
if i told myslf
to enjoy gng to coll
n attndin' lec
n makin' patterns
n cutting fabrics.
or enjoy bein' alive everyday?
or discovering another voice in me?
or enjoyin' attn?
shud i b happy
for any
or all the above?

can u teach me
to listen to myself?
or ignore myself?
or watever.
can i learn to understand
wat u call life?
can i learn to understand?
can i learn to implement?
can i learn
to listen to myself
wen i teach myself all this?

will it stop?
n then,
will it begin afresh?
will it continue
n exist?
but no,
the important question is,
will it all stop?
will they all stop suddenly,
together
or one by one?
ok, will they co exist patiently?
more or less.

will i ever get answers?
will i ever
get a unanimous answer?
will they always fall silent together
n talk togetehr?
till wen,
tell me
in measures of time,
will it go on?

wats the definition of 'lonely'?

16 comments:

  1. wah wah hai!

    "main aur meri tanhaai"'s angreji version ;)

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  2. hey nice one.. reminded me of the song Lonely by Akon....
    and yeah, i do agree with Jitendra!! :D

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  3. well each and everyline can be stitched on to a piece of shirt/tee or whatever....and y dont u try that....it l click....

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  4. definiton of lonely....." when u want someone to be there along with you physically and emotionally" ..... nice post rich!!!

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  5. definiton of lonely....." when u want someone to be there along with you physically and emotionally" ..... nice post rich!!!

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  6. fashion designing is not the only thing ur talented at r u? :) awesome stuff!!

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  7. U can never hv a standard definition of lonely...it changes in different circumstances and people. Its a kind of little death that suspends the time and consumes us and leaves us exposed and emancipated...

    As far as ur choice of fav post is concerned,maine abhi ekaad deen pehle puja se kaha tha ki tum log itna dhaasu likhte ho kamse kam is unpad gavarko helmet to de diya karo taaki mai bouncers jhel saku...:P

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  8. "As far as ur choice of fav post is concerned,maine abhi ekaad deen pehle puja se kaha tha ki tum log itna dhaasu likhte ho kamse kam is unpad gavarko helmet to de diya karo taaki mai bouncers jhel saku.."<------------ HAhahaha


    @ Rich: though this is amazingly the witten( and expressed) I hope you dont feel the same now..

    :) If you u do... then you know who to call!!

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  9. hi richa :) A M A Z I N G!!!! just loved the way you have expressed yourself and it must have been so spontaneous also......

    ~*~ so 2day if i claim
    to b lonely
    wud u pt. ur finger at me?
    wud u scoff,
    yell
    or simply turn away? ~*~

    i loved this the most.....i can relate to this.

    also agree with what rajbir said "Its a kind of little death that suspends the time and consumes us and leaves us exposed and emancipated..."

    take care .... GOD bless

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  10. thought-provoking! well done!

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  11. really good rich!

    u've just written out ur mind isnt it ... as michelle says fashion designing is not the only thing u're talented at :)

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  12. aww such a sweet post.

    U write so good. The definition of lonely:

    even when u r with alot of ppl, if ur heart still feels sad and it's without smiles, that's what LONELY is to me.


    Keshi.

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  13. Hey Richa How are you ? How are you feeling now ?

    The poem what you have written is Beautifully expressed :))

    TC

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  14. Nice poem.

    And lonely is, when the only voice you can hear is yours, and that too decides to go silent.

    Cheers Rich gal!

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  15. Oye abhi...has mat yaar..:) kahi helmet thamane ke badle sar pe na maarde...:)

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